Very young, but I truly love my grandfather suddenly lying ice coffin

Very young, but I truly love my grandfather suddenly lying ice coffin, mother, pointing to his serene countenance of absence to say: "Z, you see, he is not asleep?" feel life goes by the cold, the kind of cold seepage from the surface to the deep down, people do not know how to customize at. That was my first experience of death, I never understand what it truly means that, until 18 years old, I met J at the same time, also met F.

F is a mutual friend of I and J, the impression he has a tall stature, mustache, dyed golden hedgehog head, wearing a floral shirt, big pants, a pair of sandals and a cigarette in his mouth total love grabbed me, the bad said with a smile: "Brothers, accompany brother go to girl!" time F, is an extremely distinctive sign, a sign of our youth rebellion and rebellious.

However, the surface of the more distinctive, in essence, the more obscure. F is a lonely symbol, he and his father is a sworn enemy, in the once lashed future, he fled the city, was admitted to the home of the mother has remarried, stepfather and her mother has always regarded him as superfluous.

F told me that: "Z, In fact, we are the same person. Lifetime looking for one thing, play how many tricks, just want such a simple contraption that is a sense of security, but this jerk world can not give us. "

F is awake, he is none of us awake. Sober people, tend to respond to radical reality and situation ourselves, so his maverick.

Then, F dead. He is in the city's most bustling streets Luandaokansi murderer is a just killed his wife and got insane madman, F dead without any explanation, that madman just be locked up in a madhouse only.

F were cut down in the process, no one dared stepped forward to stop, suffered a number of knife F down in the flood flow, covered in blood, tremble convulsively, until death, crowds will he drowned.

Was the girlfriend F J lying on the bodies of the F crying weighs the past, I held onto the J, trembling, looked beyond recognition F, I forced a calm the first J helped into the lounge, and then mechanically went into the toilet, bending down, they vomited in pitch darkness, all the energy absorbed in this life seems to spit body.